cause i left my heart with you.


She's Audrey. 18 this year. A Leo. From Ipoh and currently in Subang. Loves music, shopping, photoshop and Lego. Scared of being alone. Thinks that there is nothing more dangerous than a closed mind. Is made of awesomeness.

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© * étoile filante
inspiration/colours: mintyapple
icons: cablelines
reference: InDreamsMaybe special thanks : crystal lam
title: every second i'm without you i'm a mess.
date: June 22, 2009
time:4:23 PM
"Let me save us
I've slaughtered us, I've murdered our love
I can taste it, this blood in my mouth
This knife in my lungs
have I murdered our love?
have I murdered our love?

'Cause baby I'm not alright when you.. I'm not alright when you go
Please be all mine
I never want you to go
because I am all yours, so please be all mine."

"Let me be the one who never leaves
You all alone
I hold my breath and lose the feeling
That I'm on my own
Hold me too tight stay by my side
and let me be the one who calls you
Baby all the time

I found my place in the world
Could stare at your face for the rest of
my days
Now I can breathe, turn my insides out
and smother me
Warm and alive I'm all over you
would you smother me?"

"Oh how these moments fade away, you say you never loved me
We say things we didn't mean to say
I take it back, I take it all back now
I take it back, I take it all back

Paralyzed by the same old antics
Back and forth like some walking spastic
How could a fistfight be romantic?
Thinking back now will you ever feel the same?"

Okay, been listening to The Used a lot lately. Good stuff.
Earthquake, Smother Me, Paralyzed, Liar Liar && I Caught Fire

Go listen, or ask me for the songs!

Yesterday when I was getting ready to leave for Subang, I felt miserable as usual. I always get this horrible, sinking, lonely, close to tears feeling when I leave or when he has to go away. Since when did I become this weak?

But I got the sweetest surprise today. Lucas told me he's only coming to Subang on Wednesday and all I could think of was 2 more days 2 more days. And then today when I got home, I saw he was online so I said 'hey!'. And here was what followed.

audrey : Hey!
Lucas : Hello Audrey. I'm Lucas mom here.
audrey : Oh hello aunty! :) Lucas went out?
Lucas : He went to see you.
audrey : What? But I'm in Subang. o.O
Lucas : He must want to surprise you then.. =) All of us are down in kl actually.
audrey : (YES YES YES LUCAS IS FUCKING HERE!) Oh okays. But then now its not really a surprise coz aunty bocor already hahaha.
Lucas : Haha yes. Please keep quiet. xD He actually went to the train station yesterday but knowing him he's always LATE.. So I think he must have only seen SMOKE yesterday hahaha. (Hmm I left for Subang yesterday by train haha)
audrey : (WOOHOO! *DANCES*)

Seriously like darn friggin happy. At first I thought Lucas was pulling my leg, but then his mom started complaining about how Lucas is never punctual lah, always late lah. Then I knew it was definitely his mom lolz. Happy day!